ranting and raving

The kids and I spent a few days away in CT this week and it was SOO NICE!! I haven't been out of the city since Dec so it was much needed. I seriously love beauty and nature so much and this week was SOO beyond amazing. The kids ran around, they went in and out, they were loud. It was great. I didn't miss the city at all and when we came back Cannon asked if I was glad to be home and I said, well I'm glad to be in MY apartment (which feels like home) but not the city. Sigh. We only have 9 months to go, I know it sounds awful to wish this time away but this winter has been long and miz. I really love the city when the weather is nice but otherwise it really is such a drag.

If you don't live in the city then you cannot understand what my daily life is like. Always yelling at the kids to stop running, don't yell, don't jump and most definitely do NOT bounce that ball. We don't even own any balls. Sad right? I was visiting a friend who lives in an awesome building with good solid cement sub floors (we live in an old creaky building where I can hear my neighbors cough and talk and kick off their shoes) and her kids were going to town bouncing basketballs. I came home and cried. I told Can, I want our kids to be able to bounce balls in the house! Seriously 7.5 years is just too long for this woman. I am really at my breaking point. I know things will get better once the weather is nice, but I am just so over it.

LOVE HATE is what the city gives you. I love that when I crave ceviche I have my pick of 50 restaurants. Ethiopian? No problem there are at least 4 great ones that I love. I most definitely don't want to go to Applebees or Olive Garden for special occasions, but really I will take lame o restaurants for some space and privacy. I also hate however that if I want to see a friend in another neighborhood this takes a lot of effort. Bumping a stroller on the subway or wearing a squirmy head butting toddler in a carrier to go on the bus when said bus doesn't come for 15 minutes and I'm standing in the freezing rain. Those are the awesome times that NY gives me.

But, until next January I will *try* and be positive and absorb all of the amazingness of NYC. Soaking up the sun at the beautiful beaches and parks, eating amazing food and inhaling all of the incredible energy that comes with the Spring and its warm weather.

Rant over. Peace.